I knew you will click

It's working!!!!!

I knew that it will work!!!

Anyway I would like to take this chance to thanks everyone in the class.

Peace, have a nice winter break!

=D

Finally, it's time to go home. My flight is 4am. WOOT?!

I am coming home! Malaysia! Penang! Butterworth! Daddy! Mommy!

My Artist website

Finally, I have my own website as an Artist.

The link is, http://studentpages.scad.edu/~ondham20/

Please visit my website, and give me some feedback, good or bad I want it. =D

I am coming home

It's been like eleven months I am in America. Going home soon!
I am exited! Trembling like kid standing in front of a Gay!
Just by thinking about that I can Jizz!
Seriously, my school been raping me like hell. Money wise, mental wise, and physical wise!
Hohoho! But it's something I want to achieve in the future, it's something I love.
It's really hard to love what you choose and choose what you love.

I am going to get myself a camera! What a freak!
But it's so expensive, worry that will cost my parents a burden.
Really feel very bad! I am so worry about so many things. Worry about future of myself, and also my parents....

Ish! I just gotta live in the moment! But take future into consideration too!

Blood Fountain

Recently, my back is like a blood fountain, it's been bleeding a lot. Especially this few days, I have to agree with my friends theory that there's no one will not get backbitten by some other people. This prove to be really true. Don't wanna talk about it, as it will only make the injuries worse and hurt more.

Fuh, there's a girl say this to me today, You really like to go to library a lot, I wanna reply her, so that I can see you. Of course, I din't say that out, I will freak her out. Muahahaha, joking, she is my friend. Also, I have this guy with the email of lifestalker...0.0! WHO THE FISH IS THAT?

CREEPERRRRRRRR~~~~CREEPYYYYYYY~~~~CRISPY~~~~~~~~

OFF TO BED, MIDNIGHT WORK!

I MIGHT NOT HAVE A GOOD DAY, BUT I DO WANT YOU ALL TO HAVE A BLAST!

Updates

It's been so long that I did not update my blog.

Used to update a few time in a week, at first I am motivated just to earn some cash, but now, it act as a place to my to "pour" out what is inside my heart and as a journal to check whether if I am still following the path I wanna walk or not.

Last quarter, the quarter just finished, I took introduction to screen writing class.

I wanna be a director, to spread message that is meaningful and inspiring, of course, educate and entertain in the meanwhile. Everytime, when I look at this, it sounds like a Utopia to me, but there are successful examples out there, just like 3 idiots (the best) in my mind, every child is special is good too, a bit too long. =P

I wrote a screenplay in the class, my lecturer like it a lot, I am very happy to hear that, as it's a confirmation to me. My classmates like it too. Which I believe, in the market nowadays, there's still souls, no everyone is still craving for something that is inspiring, I wish God will give me the test, and let me stay firm with this path. Yet, reality is harsh, I can't help thinking and worrying that I might not get a job or be what I wish. Personally, I want to be able to take care of my parent when I graduate, as I know I spend away most of their money for my education fee. So, I wish to be successful so that I can prove to them that they are right for putting their trust in me. I also want to create this trend of making inspirational movies, as the movies nowadays are...

Depart to Atlanta in 2-3 hours time, so excited! In the mean time, am so depress, thanks to k-on's song. It never fail to startles me, wish I can come out with this kind of series, Japanese are really good with this kind of youthful movies, which I look up on them a lot. Personally, JY is what I care bout the most, as that's the "last chance" where you still can campur tangan abit. There's a differences between anime and real life. I always pursue reality in my movies/script/screenwriting. If there's no sense of logic or reality, it's really hard for people to link it to themselves, and thus the impact will be less. To be able to achieve this, I still need a long way...will I achieve it someday? I don't know...because, I am not a good writer, actually, I don't even know what I am good with, sleep? eat? play? How ordinary I am, everytime when I look my myself, is nothing but black dots, holes, imperfection, fats! I know, focusing on my ownselves is an action of ego, but I can't help...

I still owe one of my friend a story, can a person like me...

can I really....

God knows....

Time will proves...

With that being said, thanks father and mother.

I wish I am more useful, so that I can do something for you...

Yellow?

Haha...Yellow shirt rocking Malaysia~~~

People standing up finally after being suppressed too long.

The importance of grass root stirring.

Well, I am a Malaysian, born as a Malaysian, and will, and will always be a Malaysian.

Frankly, speaking I really do love Malaysia. As a fellow Malaysian, I wish there is changes in Malaysia.

I have no comment about the way people ask for changes, it might sounds like an A-hole that I am not doing anything yet wishing something to be change.

No matter what, I believe World Government will exist, one day, Soon.

Ya Allah'u'abha.

Personal review for Transformer~

I do not want to be a spoiler, so I will just be general and just plainly stating what I think about that movie.

I just came back from Transformer 3, I watched in the cinema, the 3D version. Basically, I give 6 out of 10. For overall, its ok. Still, personally, 1st, is the best.

The basic story line is about Autobots fighting the Decepticons. LOL! That's what Transformer is about. Back to the main point, US army founded something crashed on moon, and they sent Apolo to the moon and find out it's those Robot thingy. One day, when Optimus Prime fight with one of the decepticons, he founded a part of robot, which belongs to the Autobots that lost long time ago. OP was sent to the moon and he got the his "teacher", Sentinel Prime back to the Earth. He revive him with the all spark. Sentinel Prime join forces with Decepticons, as he wanna rebuilt their "country" or "world". He set pillars all over the world, to transfer the cyberworld on Earth. OP fight against him, and end of story.

I do not think there will be transformer 4, if there is. I am certain, it will be BS.

All those visual effect, story line, voice, choreography is good. Just the way the end it, it's to fast AND IT'S NOT LOGICAL. 1 SHOT KILL, 1 CUT KILL while OP is on the verge of dying. If you want me to describe it, it's just like after a man reach his climax in sex, he cum then gone. The movie reached climax, in a blink of an eye, ended. It's does not follow logic and theory. =(

Sad....Anyway....I got the 3D spec!!!!

All pictures, posters,and rights belongs to the respective studio. I do not own any of them.

Film that I shot for my Intro to FILM class

Haha...as the titles says...I will just post the link

First assignment: still pictures...

Basically it's compilation of pictures and make it into video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZIAOv5kCwmQ

Second assignment: Bolex Project

This one is not good, faced a lot of problem, well, it's kinda out of control, but...please bear with me =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qmO7s6VMPgU&feature=related

Third Assignment: 1minute

Just like the title suggested, a 1 minute video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vFBo71_C2F8&feature=related

Final Assignment: Alphabet

Alphabet from A-Z

Will be up if I found them. =X

Problems O Problem

Yo brother, MR.Problem, can you please dont do so many kage bunshin and come to me at the same time ar? My mind is freaking full liao la.

I am so sick of this, wanna go back.

Registration also give problem, house give problem, apa ini?

Waliao leh... Can I just have a piece of peace moment please...?

Summer Break

It's so sad that I do not have a good camera. No, is not that I do not have a good camera, I do not have a camera!!!!! So, please bear with me that I do not have any picture for my blog, well, not much people interested in my blog, so, I guess it's ok. It's just a place to me to let out my feeling so that it's not keep inside and, "PIKABOOM!!!!"

As the title, I am having my Summer break now. Basically doing nothing, well, again, without SCAD students, Savannah is basically a dead town. =P

Been watching movie, watch and watch and watching. Realize that, just by watching it and define it whether is a good movie or not, is no longer enough...how the director establish the mood, how he shot, the angles, and everything, I have to go into it now, even I haven learn anything yet, but it's always better to start something out of self motivation? It can't be help, it's a pain in the ass. It's needed to be a step in front of people's. Why have to go through so much trouble la, enjoy it ok d maaaa~~~~ =DDDDD

Oh, have a change to learn "Wing Chun", is hard, but, I like it!

Summer now, people say it's really humid, yet I feel nothing. Thank you Malaysia, u have trained me well. =D

It's time to fulfill my promise.

It's been quite some time...

Been some time that I did not update my blog.

Maybe because I am busy, maybe because I am lazy, or even maybe because I am lack of inspiration, too many maybe, this is life after...?

Finally taking my major class, tons and piles of bad things happened. But, I will stay strong, stand strong, because I know this is what I want for now, for my future. Do not wanna talk about what happened, looking forward is more important...lesson learned, a very valuable one, right?

Summer break is coming, congratulations and have fun for those people who are going back home. I wish you all a safe journey. What about me? I will stay back and study =D

Why? There's always more than a reason.

Start to doubt myself whether can I reach where I wanna be.

My friend was talking to me about her boyfriend getting a 1 year internship at Disneyland and Pixel...talking about his pay, about all kinds of good things that he is going to get, how good the hostel the company providing, talking about if they drive down, company will give 900USD as compensation, if fly over there, the company will pay for the through and flow flight ticket and yadi yada yada~~~

Not jealous o...maybe I am, a little bit. =P

Well, I am just starting to doubt myself whether can I make it that far or not, cause for film and television major, it's neither you are top of the world or bottom of the world...

There's tons of reason for me to be at the top (there's always tons of reason for some1 to be on top), who do not wanna be successful? Haha, bet someone will say yes for the sake of saying yes.

Well...I wanna be successful too...instead of worrying about it and start doubting myself, decided to forget about it, concentrate on current, NOW! And looking forward, MOVE ON!

Peace, Great day!

Oh, last but not least, for friends that are leaving and those already left, wish you nothing more than all the best. Will always have you in my heart, I know you guys do not know that I got a blog, but yeah, friends from Thailand, Indonesia, Philippines, and more to come. =D

Thinking

Recently things been running in my mind.

A lot of thing is bothering me, especially works, and not being able to go home for summer break, as...there're too many reason to list...

The feeling when looking at the picture that I am not included makes me feel that I am left out, but I cannot expect I am included in everything right? I will be dead for sure...this mindset, has to change...

It's so hard to look for dedicated people in class why? I do not need a person that is really skillful...I just need dedicated and people with conviction...generations nowadays...are so weak...

天，有灰才有晴

该来的，终会来。。。

不管如何逃避，你终会，你终得面对阿~

只是想放空自己，让自己，自由自在。

没把多余的放下，就没空间把新的东西拿起来。

短短的几句，却又无比的惆怅。。。

阿~~~

What should I do?

It's been 2 and a half month I have been in US.

Everything is cool now.

I like to count how many turtles that are swimming in the river everyday when I pass through the river beside the guard house, it has became my habit.

I do doing good in all my class, drawing and art history are good, but not design class.

I do not know why, but, it seems like the professor is pin pointing on me, but I have no prove, but my mark, and yet, he can simply deny it by saying my work is not good, well, I can't say my work is really good, but compare to some of my classmate which their product is like a piece of ****, yet they get higher mark than me.

Why?

And, today have to hand in final assignment.

I failed to wake up early, yes, it's my fault and I do not deny that.

But I still hand it in on time, and he says that he is going to give me low mark for sure.

WTH?

I am totally speechless...

The.Continuation.

I do not really know why I decided to post this photo up, maybe I am trying to show off, but deep inside this photo somehow tells and show forth the theme I feel like sharing today.
It's about. Stop and Run.

How many time in our life, that we either forgotten to stop, and forgotten to run?
A great music always have good rhythm, and the stop and fast phase is somehow what makes the music attractive and appreciated.
Life is another music, and we are the composer of that great master piece, life.
Which, we can't erase,and only have one chance to write on it.
But the problem is, when we being too careful, we tend to tense ourselves up, and get over cautions, and afraid of taking risk. On the other hand, being too careless, leave behind a lot of regrets.

Peoples always debate, between two opposite things.
In Ruhi Book 6, we discussed about, service first or study first. The answer is clear.
A famous topic, follow heart or follow mind?
Follow heart? You are not logical, being not realistic.
Follow mind? You are acting like a machine, you got no life.
Buddha go through both extreme path, extreme wealthy and extreme poor, and being in moderation is the best, which is the hardest to follow. But, it is not impossible.

Stop and Run.
Basically, what I am trying to say is that.
It's ok to stop and WALK, take things slow.
When you know what, why,where and how, and you know it is something that will greatly benefit society or human being, then you have to RUN.
Sometimes, we like to use the word wait, I will come back to this or a specific person, which we never go back to that.
I do not know about you, but I do know, I did.

Control the rhythm of your life, make it the master piece.
It's like dance, take it slow, follow the flow.
Sometimes, you have to have power and momentum.
It's about Yin and Yang.
It's about what's right and what's wrong.
But, in the end, listen and follow the guarding light from above.
Who is the Supreme Ruler, The Big Brother, The Big Boss, Our Father in Heaven.

Live your life to the fullest, to love and to be loved.
"O Son of Man, Love Me that I may love thee, if thou loved Me not, My love can in no wise reach thee, know this, O servant."

How's Valentine Day?

How's everyone?

How you guys celebrate Valentine day?

with your love ones? friends? families? or it's just a normal day?

Anyhow, still wish everyone did enjoy valentine day. It's such an big event, cause everyday have love within them. =)

Let me share with you how I celebrate mine, just for the sake of sharing laaaa~~~ =P

So, Valentine day was on monday right?

So on sunday night, I basically gave a surprise to a girl.

Maybe the surprise was too big and it stunned that girl? Until now there's no reply. =D

Lolx, we all know what it means la. =X

My gift were simples and smalls.

A hair pin that comes all the way from her hometown, tied to a floating ballon with the word "happy valentine day", purposely pick that instead of I <3>

oh, and a fro-yo. Of course, and a self made card.

Basically, the fro-yo was put in her fridge.

The pin was tied to the balloon, and the ballon was tied to her room's door, and the string of the balloon supporting the card that I made. That's it, I am such a cheap a** right?

Haha, I know I know.

It can't be help, I am who I am. =D

No news is good news.

At least, I am able to concentrate on my work.

Peace and Love.

Wish everyone has a nice Valentine Day.

I notice the improvement of my courage!!!

Hohohohooho~~~

Happy Chinese New Year

Haha, Happy Chinese New year!

This is the first time that I did not go back to my grandpa house for chinese new year, not because I do not want, but I can't.

I am stuck in the country named United State of America!!

Well, It's really true that you will miss your home more especially during event.

Looks like...word can't really convey my whole feeling eh...

Just miss home!!!

Happy chinese new year, wish everyone has a prosperous year.

My first drawing

First drawing assignment, I think it's quite good for a person who can't draw...

A bad day due to own stupidity.

Waked up at 9.00a.m, cause gotta Skype with parent.

But, they weren't around, cause they are out for teaching children class, God bless them. =)

Around ten, they are online. So, we talked, around 10.30, my friend bang on my door. We go for brunch at 11.00a.m. After finished brunch, want to go back to room to start working on my homework, who knows, I forgot to take my key out, and now I am locked up.

What to do, just gotta hang out in my friends room till my roommate is back. Was surfing the Facebook page, to look for my room mate profile, so sad that I did not add him and get his phone number. Own stupidity, no one to blame.

Back to the topic. Found his profile finally, uh huh. Nothing to do, then read what he post. Then, found out that he was not "pleasant" with my existence or appearance. He used the word "ironically". So, does that means he is annoyed by me? Yes? No? I do not know, but I know that he knows and He knows. But, he posted that one the 4th january, which is the second day we meet each other. First day was on 3rd, we hardly talk, cause when I am back room, he slept. 4th early morning I am out, he is still sleeping. So...I don't know. Hope, just that I am being too sensitive.

Start to feel that I am ready to leave the stone in my heart down. But it's because I am picking another stone up. Well, life is all about juggling. Left or right? Right or Wrong? Effect and Consequences? That's what burdening us?

Learned one thing today, do not take thing for granted, nothing is suppose to, and nothing is necessarily to be in such a way. You message people, people reply you. That's not necessarily, be grateful that people do take the effort and time to reply you. I guess, I am back fired, due to own stupidity, again. =X

Suddenly, thought of my mum. Morning, when Skype-ing, she say do not spend so much , my pocket broke d. After that, she ask me, got take money from ATM or not, mother is always so caring. I feel extremely guilty, because I bought a chocolate bar from vending machine that cost only USD 1 dollar, but convert back is RM3. Haiz...sorry...mummy...

Just trying to share this, It's design by me, it's originally a drawing of a nail-cutter, I deconstruct it, then reconstruct it. Kinda cool huh? I kind of like this one.

Good things does happen, today finally heard from a Baha'i from SCAD. They called me.

Ya Baha'u'llahabha for heard my prayers.

Another good things, I cut down on my diet. =)

HuHa HuHa *Gasping for air*

Intense work!

Intense study!

Intense stress!

As you can see, I feel like a swimmer who swim up to the surface to gasp air to continue with my "journey", but, if that's what it takes to reach the top, then I'm ready for it. =D

What if it's not what it takes to reach the top? then I am not ready? =X

Haha, joking. Continue with the topic of what I feel about here.

Savannah is kind of like...Melaka to me, it's historical heritage. The differences is, here is colder (cause of winter), people are nicer, air is fresher, but~~~ There's always a but, haha!

Here is more expensive lo, of cause la, each dollar you spend here you gotta times 3, if you are a Malaysian, and of cause, the food, totally cannot compare, it's out of league! Malaysia rules for nice food, haha! At least I think so.

Recently, quite a lot of nice thing happened, of cause there's bad stuff too, but I'm going to talk about nice stuff only, haha~

1st - I see some rare animal in one day! I mean, to me, they are rare. I see squirrel running all around the town! I always wished to own a trained squirrel, it will hang on your body and you can bring it go out. I am sure Collins wished to own one too. =P

Other than squirrel, I saw beaver too, on the river outside my hostel. =D

Then, an owl, a real owl in the city, not in the zoo, I find it cool, do not know bout you guys.

2nd - I went for an art gallery, it's called..."mr.beast", there's some painting and sculpture about monster. They sell toys there too, some Ultraman and the monster that appear in the movie. haha, it's so funny, I am sorry that I can't show the picture or the painting or sculpture. Well, there's a person who disguise as a robot with using boxes, and another guy wear a monster mascot. They fight! The robot dude kill the monster by using flash attack, they manually make the flash, it was so funny! The MC was talking with his japanese accent, you can imagine that you are in some kind of ultraman movie. Don't you think that's fun?

3rd - Third, I meet Malaysian here! I went over to their house and have a dinner together. They cooked me Hokkien mee, it was nice! After dinner, we chit chat a lil bit, exchange information and get to know each other better. The moment I enter the house I feel so weird, first is because I am shy (>.< "), 2nd, I do not know how to face girls, and they are so cute and pretty (gotta say like this, don't wanna get crushed...), no, I mean, they are! Haha!

Basically, this was what happened in this few day. When you are away from home, friends are those who you can count on, this is the time I realize the true value of friendship. Peace!

Hate myself for not being able to play instrument.

Kinda sad for not able to play any instrument.

Hope I wish I can play an instrument...especially piano.

Human are really strange, we always wanted to posses what people already posses,

till we forgotten what we possessed.

Well, in the same time, people wish to posses what we possessed.

Human are really greedy, and never satisfy.

I am one of those.

Sad.

When will I be content?

The day I die?

Maybe I will still wish more when I am dead.

Such ungrateful bastard.

feeling of missing

I remember telling myself that, once I leave Malaysia, you are leaving everything behind, a new life is beginning.

But, why? yet, I still feel pain!

Every time I see your name pop up on wall, my heart still feel like it's tear apart.

Why you message me after so long did not contact me?!

Why you doing this to me? After I get used to it, then you message me again?!

Do you know how pain this is?

I can't do anything every time I open your profile, and think of you...

Why are you being so selfish...do you know how hurt I am...

Can you please give me an explanation?

This is so not fair.

United State of America

Have been in USA for one week, time flies, really...

This is my first time away from home for real far, first time go out from my country.

Hah, never been out from my country, once go out, go to the other side of universe, I must be crazy.

Faced a lot of problems, a lot of embarrassing moments, and of cause, a lot of learnings.

Still remember what happen in Penang airport, thought the automatic passport checking machine really work, trying to use it to scan my passport, apparently, I failed, haha, everyone was laughing at me.

But, I like it that way, what I leave behind for them was laughter, instead of sad and gloomy atmosphere.

Still, remember how my mom non-stop nagging me, keep saying pack you bag, cut your hair, faster come back, do not go anywhere anymore. Well, she is a mother, she has the right to nag, don't you think so? Well, I miss her nag, haha!

Will further update bout the problems I faced on the journey from Malaysia to USA, as tomorrow 8am got class, better sleep early. =P