It's been so long that I did not update my blog.
Used to update a few time in a week, at first I am motivated just to earn some cash, but now, it act as a place to my to "pour" out what is inside my heart and as a journal to check whether if I am still following the path I wanna walk or not.
Last quarter, the quarter just finished, I took introduction to screen writing class.
I wanna be a director, to spread message that is meaningful and inspiring, of course, educate and entertain in the meanwhile. Everytime, when I look at this, it sounds like a Utopia to me, but there are successful examples out there, just like 3 idiots (the best) in my mind, every child is special is good too, a bit too long. =P
I wrote a screenplay in the class, my lecturer like it a lot, I am very happy to hear that, as it's a confirmation to me. My classmates like it too. Which I believe, in the market nowadays, there's still souls, no everyone is still craving for something that is inspiring, I wish God will give me the test, and let me stay firm with this path. Yet, reality is harsh, I can't help thinking and worrying that I might not get a job or be what I wish. Personally, I want to be able to take care of my parent when I graduate, as I know I spend away most of their money for my education fee. So, I wish to be successful so that I can prove to them that they are right for putting their trust in me. I also want to create this trend of making inspirational movies, as the movies nowadays are...
Depart to Atlanta in 2-3 hours time, so excited! In the mean time, am so depress, thanks to k-on's song. It never fail to startles me, wish I can come out with this kind of series, Japanese are really good with this kind of youthful movies, which I look up on them a lot. Personally, JY is what I care bout the most, as that's the "last chance" where you still can campur tangan abit. There's a differences between anime and real life. I always pursue reality in my movies/script/screenwriting. If there's no sense of logic or reality, it's really hard for people to link it to themselves, and thus the impact will be less. To be able to achieve this, I still need a long way...will I achieve it someday? I don't know...because, I am not a good writer, actually, I don't even know what I am good with, sleep? eat? play? How ordinary I am, everytime when I look my myself, is nothing but black dots, holes, imperfection, fats! I know, focusing on my ownselves is an action of ego, but I can't help...
I still owe one of my friend a story, can a person like me...
can I really....
God knows....
Time will proves...
With that being said, thanks father and mother.
I wish I am more useful, so that I can do something for you...
Recently, my back is like a blood fountain, it's been bleeding a lot. Especially this few days, I have to agree with my friends theory that there's no one will not get backbitten by some other people. This prove to be really true. Don't wanna talk about it, as it will only make the injuries worse and hurt more. 