Love? What is love?

Speaking of love, I personally did made a song for my loved ones before =D

But, it doesn't sounds good...sad case for me =(

Recently, I fall in love with a girl, not really recently thou, it's been for years, but just come to realization in February of this year. Yeah, I know. I am dumb, how can u love someone but u do not know, but sometimes we are just too "busy" and forgotten things that are pretty and always with us? Same way, this work...

Me and that girl was like, erm, how should I put this, in different world? Yeah, her world was full with symbols(music note) and rhythm and beats, and mine was full with motions, colors and actions. So, sometimes I wonder, will she fall in love with me then? I don't know, but, from what I see now, the answer is, IMPOSSIBLEEE! Dream on~~

Even thou I do not understand the "language" of her world, but I am learning it, so, yeah, I go and learn about music, so that I can have the "pass" to enter her world, no, but to at least understand her language. I swear to myself that, I will say good night to her everyday and at least learn to play a new song every week, not the simple one like twinkle twinkle little star *.*".

Come back to the title, what is love? I think, love is like riding in the cable car. Before u wanted to after a girl/boy or into a relationship, it's just like before u step into the cable car. But, once you stepped into the cable car, it's neither the cable car safely send you to the other side, or it drop. Of course, meanwhile you can see beautiful sight. Love, is the same it's neither you see beautiful things, or you fall. By the way, love is also like a knife, it cuts. But, the question is, yours? or...someone else? something else? or...maybe nothing else?

It's been a long time

It's been a long time I did not post anything...it's because I am doing nothing and I just lay down in house doing nothing and getting root.

So, decided to get a job. Ironically, I founded a job in a japanese restaurant. I love sushi, but, too bad, now I can only look at sushi and see people eating it, but I can do nothing. Sometimes, it feel sucks, that... something u want it so much but you just could not help or do anything to get it...I believe, everyone meet this situation before...more than I does, I guess....some of you...=)

But, life goes on...simple yet hard eh...

There's something about this job...it's just some easy and simple job, just have to clean the table and serve food and drinks, just like what a waiter do lah...but the problem is the the people who works there... as long as there's people, there's problem...Bah...this is what we meant by working...$ > feelings...u want money ? yes, then do it...yeap...guess no choice...

A true star

MJ, I am sure you all knows who's MJ~ He is...Micheal Jackson? A lot people say that he is a great singer and artist or a star, but to me, he is a true star. He was very talented, his songs promote unity and link thousands hearts together...He passed away one year already, time flies...want to pay your tribute to him? There's a way. You can go to this website, the link is at bottom. He is always with us, even we can't see him, just like the star in the sky, they are always there.

To pay your tribute to king of pop go to ---> http://memories.michaeljackson.com/

Demoralize...?

This is what happened yesterday in Kuala Lumpur...It's written by a person who saw the accident.

This morning approx 3.20am, at Cheras Tmn Pertama roundabout,

saw a freak accident, involving a Vios, Myvi and a Lorry.

im one the first badge who arrive, mean it just happen maybe seconds ago.

Vios believe to be turtle and badly damaged. When im passing by the vios, rear passenger started to pull out the front driver and front passenger.

then when i pass the Myvi, the car was totally sardine. Heard one girl was yelling cos piined inside. I stop my car then run towards the myvi to offer a hand while calling 999 emergency line to request for ambulance and bomba.

then saw fire spark at the engine bay of myvi. while still on the phone with emergency line to provide more details, i run back to my car and drive to BHP station which is just less than 500m away from the scene.

then i request for the fire extingusher from the attendant which is kept inside. There was 4 extingusher on the ground. But the attendant refuse to pass to me.

the BHP attendant claimed dat the door cant be open.

then i shout at him, i need it! i want it! someone is pinned inside the car and its started to burn!

then the BHP attendant keep repeating he kenot borrow and open the door.

then i was like WTF! if ur kiosk is burning can u come out? then he replied yes.

then he still say he kenot open the door. Then he say his boss wont allowed to borrow. WTF!!!

then i started to amuk kicking the kiosk and punching the glass of the kiosk.

i even throw my IC to him say that if im dun return u report police.

i say i borrow.. if i use it i will pay for it. then he keep on just smile at me.

then he ask another partner to come out. Then i start shouting and yelling at them with bad words saying dat if the girl dies you two are the murderer.

then the 2nd BHP attendant shout back at me.

i demand for their names, i told them i would complain bout them,

then the 2nd attendant copy down my number plate and said that all my acts been recorded on CCTV and he gonna report to police tumoro. I challenged him.

then i drove off back to the scene.. the car was totally burning and the poor girl was burn alive inside.

then i spoke to the Bomba and PDRM how many casualties was inside. they told me one girl.

Then i spoke to PDRM about the incident happen in BHP.. then the policemen also scold with anger WTF with them.. if i could get the fire extingushier.. the girl might be saved.

then the Policemen ask me to go police station to report a cover about the BHP, and he assured me that the stupid BHP wont get to report on me.

Personally i would like to ask, how much does 4 fire extingusher cost? isit more expensive than a life?

would like to ask the BHP petrol station's boss! u cant afford to lose 4 fire extingusher then u better closed down your station!!!! f*ck you boss!!!!

and this is to BHP MALAYSIA!! seens your procedure to keep all safety gadget inside the kiosk... if anything happen during refueling... is your attendant gonna open the door to help? seens he claimed that the door cant be open after hours??

i personally from now on will boycott BHP... i dont know how about you all!!!

gonna give BHP HQ a call tumoro... see what the will they say about this kind of safety measurement they have!!!!!


for the two BHP attendant!!! you are the murderer!!!!!

ORIGINAL NEWS LINK
http://ondscene.blogspot.com/2010/06/mangsa-sempat-mengucap-sebelum-hangus.html

I feel ashame as a Malaysian to hear this happening in Malaysia, I wondering, do they have no commonsense? Thumbs up for the 2 worker. May God "Bless" YOU! Get a better life for you two. Looks like nowadays, people do not even know what should be at the first place or what should come first, is it education system problem or what, I do not know, I personally do feel, we human are going backward...modernizing in material, spiritual and action going back to BABARICK~

The Door?

Finally, today I get a better understanding or new perception about the meaning of door.

Door, is like a portal that linked one place to another place. It might mean location, situation, mindset, and even statuses.

I just came back from devotional gathering. I quarreled with my mom when on the way there due to some stupid reason. Then after devotional, I am having conversation with my friend. Then my friend said something:" you know? Among us, you are the one who need to reflect on yourself the most, even thou you are a very active Baha'i, but which which which aunty's son is at least 100 times or 1000times better than you cause at least and respect their parent."

I know I cant argue back, cause no matter what, I am the one who is wrong. People say, suit yourselves to the faith, but not the faith suits to yourselves. Perhaps, I should not be a Baha'i? Since, I will only disgrace the honor of the faith only, instead of stuck inside the basket and be the rotten egg...why not just leave and make the picture prettier...?

"The Baha'i door is always open, you can come in and you can go out", from someone pro...maybe I should leave, and enter only when I am qualified.

~!Timeless!~

Just reach home from Genting Highland. I attended Khalil Fong's concert yesterday night and sitting on VVIP seat!!! WOOOHOOOO~~~~ more pics coming up, go for my shower 1st, stinky, yucks....=P

~! A long Friday !~

Last friday, I go to Kuala Lumpur, if u guys do not know where Kuala Lumpur is, then, it's where the Petronas Twin-Tower are...that's how twin tower is...

Let's go back to the actual story ba, I take 8.30am bas from Butterworth, so we reach KL around 12.30. The bas suppose to stop at bukit Jalil, but it stop at stadium something duta, well, whatever it is, from there, we have to go to Bukit Bintang, because I wanted to go to MACEE's office, to ask for some information about Universities in USA. We take bas, and go to Puda Raya, and from there we walk to Bukit Bintang, those uncles and aunties say it's just ten minute walking, but actually is 30minutes walking, well...anyhow, we still thankful to those uncles and aunties.

After walking for 30minutes, my friends they were tired they decided to wait for me in KFC, so I have to go and look for MACEE's office alone. It takes another 30minute journey for me to reach there. I finish my business there around 4pm. Then I have to walk back to the KFC, unfortunately, I am lost...>"<...but we have to meet our friend at Serdang around 5pm. So, I called my friend and ask them to wait for me at the LRT center, then I trying to run back, but, I cant run fast, due to my fatness...so I take taxi la...it cost me RM20 to go from bukit bintang to Pudu, it was so near, I am still wondering does it cost that much?

We manage to meet there and reach Bandar Tasik Selatan on time...then we need to take KTM to go Serdang, when we reach the station, so many people is there, so me and my friend decided to wait for second round then only we go up. Unfortunately, second round people still a lot. I have to push my friend go in then only I can go in. Before the door close, suddenly, got one person rushed out, nearly drag my friend's bag out also, we were forced to give way, then on half way, one of my friend say his handphone was missing, then I touch my pocket, eh! Mine also gone. Then my friend was asking around see whether got people saw it or not, but, the respond given was, he is noisy, I was like, the knife does not cut u, of cause u do not know the pain. It's ok u do not want to help, why would u talk so much?

Then we wait for our friend to pick us up lah, somewhere in front of 7-11, another 2 friend of mine say, curse those thieves, but we 2 was like...give them la. Be thou content, we was like, it's ok to lost those phone...like no rasa =.= perhaps...I should end this with a quote? Thanks for everything. Oh, and speaking of this, when I am looking for MACEE's office, there's a "chicken with shoes" ask whether want to....aiyah ><", u know lah, I was like shocked, why they picked a boy like me XD

Tests are benefits from God, for which we should thank Him. Grief and sorrow do not come to us by chance, they are sent to us by the Divine Mercy for our own perfecting. ~'Abdu'l-Baha

Mother's day present

The Butterfly i make.....

The Butterfly and it's baby, cute ma? =P

The end product....=D

Tomorrow is Mother day, so, I teach children in children class some arts and crafts so that they can give to their mother as present. I teach them to do Butterfly~~and a mother day card lo...something normal , but, it's the love from them to their mom. Happy mother day, and I love u mom....=)

Guess what people do when they are really boring?

Just now around 7.30, I on facebook, and I saw my friend posted a wall post. She say :" What a boring day...". Then people started to drop comment, and I do not know how we talk until we come out a conclusion that Swan ( our friend's name) is a chopstick.

Then we stopped and I posted something that I got inspiration and thinking of writing a song. Then my USM Music Friend, Pinky, dropped some comment....

Pinkberry Yun

about chopsticks? u said u r inspired by my conclusion. xD

53 minutes ago ·

Ondre Ham Ming Ruey

er...sorry ><"
not about chopstick, in fact i am really inspired by ur amazing conclusion, but, sorry, not till that far =P
well, to be honest, i am inspired by my own conclusion

52 minutes ago ·

Pinkberry Yun

conclusion about swan can be used to cucuk fishball?

51 minutes ago ·

Ondre Ham Ming Ruey

what the hell =.="
why u, omg, why u like to say swan can be used to cucuk fishball...hmm...u tried before izzit?!

50 minutes ago ·

Pinkberry Yun

use her finger to cucuk la..hahaa.. =P

49 minutes ago ·

Ondre Ham Ming Ruey

cannot...then u run out from our experiment already.
our experiment is using our object, which we named it swan, to cucuk a fishball, not using swan's finger to cucuk fishball...be clear...=D

47 minutes ago ·

Pinkberry Yun

make swan pose like a superman flying pose la, with her index finger pointing something, use the index finger to cucuk..then wil be like the whole swan cucuk-ing fishball edi. hahahaaa~

44 minutes ago ·

Ondre Ham Ming Ruey

oh my god!
so creative of u,thinking of changing the shape of the object to make it more efficient...hmm, why i am thinking of she stand still and use her head to cucuk fishball all the while...haiz, old adi ><"

42 minutes ago ·

Pinkberry Yun

of course la, music students need to be creative ma..hahaaa..gosh, how u gonna use a round thing to cucuk thing laaaa..

40 minutes ago ·

Ondre Ham Ming Ruey

i am also art student ok...?
my creative is making impossible thing become possible. For, example, using her round heart to cucuk fishball, u think it's impossible, but making it possible is the aim of this experiment....
ur creative is just changing the shape =)

37 minutes ago ·

Pinkberry Yun

mayb u can put a needle on her head.hahahaaa~

36 minutes ago ·

Ondre Ham Ming Ruey

hmm...that might work...but if we put a needle on her head, is not round head poke fishball, is cone head poke fishball de...

35 minutes ago ·

Pinkberry Yun

then put the needle on the fishball, let the fishball poke her head.

33 minutes ago ·

Ondre Ham Ming Ruey

er...it's immoral to damage our test subject...but if she willing...then should be fine...ask whether is she willing or not?

*Tick Tock*

*Tick Tock* *Tick Tock* *Tick Tock*

Everytime just one Tick, one second is gone, another Tock, another second is gone...without noticing...time is really flying and has away from us...so fast, one year has passed and it's time to seperate with my friend.

One of them, go back to Kuala Lumpur to day...guess, I still have chance to see her. Another one is my first Korean friend, Jessica, her flight is today 8.am....which is later, she do not want anyone to send her at airport, but i have decided to send her and against her will, as I believe that i will regret forever if i do not send her...well...guess, sometimes...u will just have to face it....

I heard people say that the longest or the biggest distance is that, I am standing in front of u, and u do not know that I love u. I beg to differ....i think the biggest distance is the time that has passed...no matter how u trying to revive or go back...it passed and it's end.

How to have a long marriage?

How to keep a marriage? I think, this is a question everyone asked before, there are a lot of answer u can get. From people around u, from people who already in a marriage, even from professional. I wonder how they become professional, maybe marry a lot of time? =P. No la...just joking.

Today i wanted to have breakfast with my dad and mum, but too bad, my mum have to rush for work, on the way, they are quarreling, for some small beans or peas stuff, i was like, why this kind of small thing they also can quarrel... I do not care, I just sleep la...then after dad drop mom, me and dad go for breakfast. We eat Dim sum!!! haha, my favorite, that is the reason why i follow la, kekekek...so evil of me =P

Then we eat sajalah...till, the Dim Sum people ask whether want eat steam fish or not, we did not order, but my dad straight called my mum ask whether want eat or not. I was like, hmm....perhaps this is how people maintain a relationship ba....they do always quarrels for small thing, but, they will still put each other in their heart, when they see something the other half like, they will just remind them of the other half. Then, after not long, my mum came, as my mum shop is kind of near. The first thing my mum say after she sit down was, below were their conversation.

Mum:" Do u know that ah Tak dad passed away?"
Dad:" He got a dad?"
Mum:" Who does not have dad?"
Dad:" No ma...he always alone de."
Mum:" Ur eldest son also always alone la, he do not have a dad ar?"
Dad:" ..."

Lolz, i was laughing, kind of funny la my parent =D
I think the main key to maintain a relationship is to put each other into heart and then automatically the love will shows, and love will keep people together =)
Looks like, i learned something from my dad and mum today, hope i can be like them sumday in future...PEACE

Eventful day =D

Yesterday, 3th of April. Is the show day, morning 10a.m, we all gathered there to practice. We practice till 1.30, then we go for lunch, then come back around 3.15, then we test run with mike, after pun on the mike, a lot of restriction for our action...but too bad we only manage to test run one time...then is time to change and have our dinner...morning until afternoon weather is so nice...then after that..the rain god was touched and start to cry, it rain!!!

Starting still ok...then become storm, the rain go into the changing room, want to pun on make up also cant, the light bulb drop and break...everyone was scare and was worried. Then our director stand on a chair and say that we will wait until the rain stop, we will not cancel the show unless it rain until 12.00 p.m, i called my parent and ask them not to come as the rain is very heavy, but they still came...which make me so touch.

The performance was really good, it's higher standard and higher energy compare to the time when we practice,overall, it was really really really really good!

I am really glad that i have the chance to join them =)

Another post to promote myself, Haiz =(

A banner somewhere in Penang...and my big face is there =(

embarrassing...well, the most important, please come and support

...Happening in the bungalow...

Ok, GUYS! There will be a theatre drama in explanade penang in 3th april...i am going to act in it...please come and support...the best part!! It's free!!!

...Puzzle...

Yesterday, the girl i like tell me that we always messaging each other is very costly, so, i figure and interpret that she ask me stop messaging her ba...my heart break and scattered...well whatever it is, it makes me come into realization that...life is like scattered pieces of puzzle, every single piece is a small event in ur life...how you plan your life or doing thing, is how u plan to puzzle ur puzzle...how you manage your time is how u manage the way to puzzle ur puzzle...well, post this just to share some of the insight i get from the message she send me...well there are people who read my blog, there are also people who just pass by, well whoever they are...great day, friends. =)

Bad day

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a rid

I have such a bad day today, today got test, so yesterday night, midnight oil la of cos =.="

then early early morning 6am wake up, bath then have to rush to campus, takes me around 45 minute to reach campus cause got jam la, traffic light la, u know...whatever is on the road...then morning 8am class was biology, then what, next saturday go field trip, report, and do poster, big trouble this time...now currently got 7 assignment including presentation...somebody save me...=(

Then, world religion test, section a 40%, section b 50%, section c 10%...section c and a i know how to do, only section b...how can lecturer set mark like this...so unfair...i am gone this time...and now u are gone(to myself)...then go and take my lunch, when going to pay money then only found out that i got no enough money...run around campus just to borrow RM1? man, this is making me sick...and sms someone, then run out of battery...well...hope nothing more going to happen...

Well, whatever it is, i am still standing! Come for me!! Babyyy~~~I must be crazy =P

=Finally=

Well, today quite of lot of ''finally'' happened.

Finally, Collins flight is today.

Finally, today i did not go to college at all.

Finally, i hugged a gal? (due to drama)

Lolz, was scolded dumb by director, as in do not know how to hug a girl...

well, what to do, i have never hugged a girl before...haiz

But, at least, i learned today....

Oh my God, she is coming down Butterworth ~.~"

nervous,haha,list of places to visit, where are u~~~

Collins, finally today u will fly eh...all the best for ur study, we will definitely, meet someday,sometime,somewhere...i bet, the next time we meet, we will be different from now, as we are all growing...Never regret that i came and study and stay in penang, as, i have a chance to meet so many people,and you are one of them, those McD lepak time, those time we spend on solving problem, having fun and learning,will be in memory...LIVE ON! It's time to go.Bye, Buddy,see you around, just hope that, we have a chance to meet, again =D

...Learning...

This few day kind of busy, rushing here, rushing there...a lot of things and learning eh. The things that really go deep into my heart is that, really sometimes, u did try your very best, yet, people still thought u haven try your best...

There is one recent saturday night, i receive a call, asking me whether sunday going back or not, i answered nope, as i need to finish my assignment and i need help from a friend of mine who stay in Butterworth, so i have to stay back in order to finish my assignment, but from the other side, i heard...recently, u seems like...not showing up that much already, i get what she is trying to say, but i can't fight back or whatsoever, as recently i really dint show up much for meeting or service, but it's because of my assignment and everyday i also got rehearsal for drama, as 3th of april there is a performance...lets look at my schedule...

monday 8-10,12-2,4-6 lecture, 7-11pm rehearsal

tuesday 8-12 lecture, 7-11pm rehearsal

wednesday 12-2 lab, 7-11pm rehearsal

thursday 8-10, 12-4 lecture, 7-11pm rehearsal

friday 12-6 lecture, night still got junior youth gathering, and still need to go back to hometown.

saturday morning till afternoon free, night teaching children class or animating junior youth gathering.

sunday consider free?

i might put there free, but it does not mean i got nothing to do, it's just that maybe is assignment or whatsoever.I am not complaining, but it's really hard to let people to understand what u are going thru...So, i still hold on with my principal...those know me, know me, those do not know me, screw them...i know it sounds rude, but...*speechless*

Ok...do not want to talk about that anymore...this few week, everyday i go for rehearsal in USM, i am not a USM student, but i am taking part in one of the acting, i see the dedication from the team, i see the professional, maybe the skill is not as good as the professional, but i will say, the spirit is the same with the professional. I learn a lot of thing from my friend, who is the director for the drama. Body warm up, voice warm up is what we must do every time before we actually start the rehearsal, then sometimes after that we will play some game, the game is not for fun, but to let us go into the mood, be more focus, and putting attention to the object or emotion. Well, i acted before, quite a lot of time, but compare with this time, i feel the pressure, especially when i with them, i feel the way i act is just crap...i feel that, there is seriously a difference between people who under go training before and those who like act before and consider themselves actor, which is like me. I get kind of down, as i want to be a director, but i do not know how to act, it's like i want to be an engineer, but i do not even know what is V=IR...that kind of feeling, you know? But, i am really grateful...they encourage me all along, taking and carrying me up like teammate, comrade =) Hereby, i would like to say thanks to them, and willing to learning more. Hope, i able to manage both my interest and academic stuff...praying hard....am i?

Cannot stay in Penang anymore?

Haiz, last friday i go back my hometown, Butterworth. Reach home around 11 pm, everything still fine, watch movie with dad and mom, chit chat, then go to sleep around 2pm. So, the other day wake up around 11.30 la, bath, clean myself up then eat lunch, so when i am having my lunch my dad came back, and saw me eating lunch, on my spoon it's meat! And he start scolding say i always eat meat, unhealthy and blah blah blah...then shout ar!! =.=", i wonder what is happening, and he say since u go penang u getting fatter and fatter and fatter, i was like, WTH?

And, saturday and sunday they keep pumping me fruit juice, apparently they spend 1k sumthing for one blend machine i guess? They put apple, orange and bitter gourd, OMG, can u imagine the COMBO?!! I really wonder where they go and get all those supply, their supply was unlimited. =.=

DUH, I THINK THEY WANT ME TO GO BACK BUTTERWORTH AND STAY IS BECAUSE THEY WANT TO PUMP ME WITH THEIR ''HEALTHY'' JUICE!!! SAVE MEEEEEE~~~

Delightful College Day

Today is my second day in college, but i never have thought able to gain knowledge and able to share knowledge is such happy and joyful thing. After ISGP, i think the ability of seeing things materially and interpret it into spiritual understanding. I just shared my first biology class experience. After that is World Religion class, lecturer did not start lecturing today, she gave us course structure and also some question. The question ask about do you believe in God?What is the purpose we were created? And all kind of stuff, after that we discussed about it in the class, i was really surprising that i am able to share my opinion and able to listen to other people's opinion too,and they are really amaze by Baha'u'llah teaching, they might not know who He is, but at least they all appreciate His teaching, the things i learn in ISGP is very very useful...How blessing i am, that i am able to attend ISGP...Oh, there is also another thing happening, today 3.00pm there will be people representing some University come from Australia, and they are kind of top in the major that i am majoring in. I hope from there i can really find out, my future! Pray for me, Cheerssss~~~~

Some realization

I am in my first ever Biology class, still in class now currently =P

My lecturer ask me what do u mean by life? I answered something that can walk and carry out action,another friend of mine say they contain cells. But, my lecturer say the significant is that, they can reproduce, i was like...hmm....

well, what ever it is, he said something that make me realize is that, a lot of thing that living in this world, they have different appearance, style of walking, or watever system, but in the end they still share the same system, as in, they still get the energy from plant and then transfer to energy, from there they produce Co2, and go back to plant. No matter what, deep inside, they are the same. I personally think that, that also applies to human, as we might have different outlook, but deep inside, we share same blood colour, bone structure and everything is the same. After all, we are waves upon one sea and leaves on one tree, and also flower of one garden...CHEERS!!!!

Bahai Bas Stop in Sabah, Tuaran

Bahai bas stop, even with Baha'u'llah quotation. To know more about bahai u can go to www.bahai.org

~!!Late for class thanks to RapidPenang!!~

Today first day back to college, apparently 8am got class, thanks to our beloved RapidPenang bas, i am late. It causes serious traffic jam! Start from Econsave to the mountain road.